Self Care

I've spent a lot of time lately taking care of other people's needs and have grossly disregarded my own. A couple of weeks ago I decided to take a more proactive role in my own self, starting with eating habits. Those of you who know me know I am a compulsive eater. Eating helps me when I'm stressed, sad, unhappy, angry, busy, and every negative emotion there is. I also eat to celebrate, show love, and spend time with people I love. And it shows. I have ballooned up from fit and athletic to "apple shaped." Apple shaped? Could that reallly have happened? Oh, dear Lord, how I've let myself go! Two weeks ago I took my eating habits in hand and started paying attention to everything I eat. I decided if I am buying something in the break room that I don't want others to see, then I shouldn't be eating it. There is something to writing down everything I eat, also. It makes me think, "Do I really want it immortalized that I ate this?" Particularly because I promised myself to be honest about it. Why lie to myself? Enough people in the world already do that enough, so it's up to me to be completely honest about it and take responsibility for what I've done to myself. Since I started doing this, I've lost six pounds, and hope it is just the start to something good. The Go For Broke Foundation, an organization that supports and celebrates military veterans of Japanese descent, is having its annual dinner in October, and I have a dress I would like to wear. It almost fits - almost - but I sure would like it to fit well. That would be a nice first goal, I think. Yes, that will do nicely.